it's been a while...

I told you the interest would wear off after the first week...anyway... I'M BACK!!!! I'm in the Business centre now.. my friend mirza is in some kind of problem.. he cannot find the file he transferred to the computer... and the tape might have been erased..

Countdown: 1 hour 29 minutes to sports..

Got to go.. for my Lu*ch..hee hee

here i am....again...

Venging my tortured soul and feelings on this blogsite that i consider my latest craze...

I'm a Christian.

Not that being one is something disastrous. it's just that the expectations and convictions that come with it are kind of starting to weigh me down...

Quiet time...
I haven't been too disciplined in my quiet time. It's often a short read of 1 chapter of 1 book in the Bible...for the moment.. i'm reading 2 Corinthians...'

But quiet time is more than just a short-read.. right? it's supposed to be an engaging time with God, where you experience Him, and let Him speak to you through his Word. It hasn't been like that for me for as long as i can remember...

Testimonies...
I flared up once again... earlier...at my colleague... all because i wasn't best pleased with him leaving his stuff all over my workspace...so i said some mean things... which i regret because they know i'm a Christian. I guess i'm not at a spiritual high.. actually.. i haven't been for a while...

but i know that it was also right of me to offer an apology to him. and so i did... i also apologised to the other guy who was around.. because i was a bad testimony for Christ...."Church freak?" some might offer... but *sigh* you can't please all right?

I've been feeling down recently... Not that it's something new... it's been with me since year 1 in polytechnic.. and with it comes that bit of low self-esteem.. Awww.. says my duty mate.. reading this as i type..

I'm newly posted here at SAFWOS (well about 2 months already)...anyway...so when you're new..you tend to not want to offend people...I have heard and seen for myself the invisible divide between the NSFs...herein lies my dilemma... "which group to go to?" my duty mate offers.... To be very honest... i really am fine with both groups.... "so politically correct"....*sigh*...but it's true...i really AM fine.. i tell you..

i don't see a need for everything to be strained and fake...and even as i post this for all to read.. i'm probably risking my status with either group... but anyway.. this is a blog site for my thoughts and feelings, right?

if you're reading this and belong to either group... you may already have formed the impression that i'm just being politically correct... but i reiterate... I'm really just fine being any of you....

Ministries...
I'm beginning to feel weary of ministries in church. I say "burn out", but like what the lady at a mission conference i went to said, "If you feel 'burnt out', it's actually your own fault.."

now the time went bonkers on me....

For the record, terreng is what my neighbours, Terry & Dennis, call me....It's actually Terry Ng... but its pronounciationbecame distorted after a while...

Suchat is my Thai name. It was given to me by Somchai, a Thai missionary, when i went to Thailand for a mission trip in November 2002.. i think...

Lizardskin and lizard...because that was what my platoon mates in Hawk BMT called me... Don't ask me why.. those close enough would know...but if you don't....tis' alright... you can try calling me in the middle of my sleep and bug me to tell you... i might just tell you... or maybe i won't... :P

i just got "niao-ed" (birded, ticked off) by this staff sgt. because i didn't want to collect his CD which is actually supposed to be returned along with the others...sigh..what a loser...

i hope he regretted what he did... cos' like what somebody said.. his son might one day be in my shoes...Bwahhahaahah...

AAArrrggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! on 2 counts...

Firstly, i FINALLY managed to get my xanga manga tanga wanga blog site up.... you should have seen the list of usernames (Terence Ng, terreng, Suchat, Lizard, Lim-pei) i wanted to use before finally settling on lizardskin... it would have to be cool i felt... but ahh whatever lah... lizardskin is it!

Secondly, halfway through my DEBUT blog....the computer hung on me and yes i had to retype everything..

Not an ideal start eh?

but anyway...i shall beat away all the negatives and seek to pen down all if not most of my feelings and thoughts... yeah right... give me one week and i'd probably not type in any more new entries..