puff the magic dragon.

a heading, nonetheless.

it was a fairly uneventful sunday. passed by pretty fast. worship was alright, though sermon was insightful, despite the headache i was suffering from.

after church.. diana's booked for a movie with her mum.. so i've got no one to shop with.. thought i do something i really enjoy to get my mind away from monday blues (which happens to the best of us).. and cos' i really haven't bought anything for myself for a good few months.. thought i asked audrey to accompany me for some window shoppin'.. but she wanted to head home.. it's ok.

had a lousy, expensive dinner of mutton soup at vivo's food republic. i don't know why people still patronise that place. food's decent at best and prices are exorbitant.

had a revelation while i walked around deciding on my choice of dinner. actually, it happened awhile back when eng soon left, then jeff who came back for awhile didn't seem interested in angora, then it culminated when they were asking to fillup church camp rooming forms. I had none to room with. thank God, He provided bx, ivan and terence (another). but that's not the point.

during dinner i decided that i'd probably head home after dinner with diana and her mum.. thought it better for me that way. so we bade farewell, and i went off to the adidas shop to try my school team jersey size first..

so much for heading home immediately.. i got delayed by zara, pull and bear, topman on the way to the adidas shop. 3 purchases for about $51 bucks from pull and bear made me feel a little better. offer lah. adidas shop and then home. saw my poly mate andy soh, star calefare of Money No Enough 2. didn't get to speak to him though, dunno where he went after i came out of changing room.

this whole friend-less thing really came to a head during dinner, and driving home after vivo. add this to the fact that i got damn bloody pissed off with this uber-pretentious person (no, tyt; i ain't referring to you) i heard about, from a trustworthy source, who double-crossed someone dear to me. i mean, everyone chooses their own paths and actions, so live by the consequences of yours.

if you want to be a 'friend' to another, then be a bloody real one for goodness sake. don't wait till you're threatened by someone else before you come into the picture once more.

honestly, much of how i think and react, no one will truly appreciate. it is with genuine good intentions that i carefully select my choice of action or reaction. it is only cos' i care about someone that i bother to be irate, disappointed or angry. granted though, i am not always right in my thinking and behaviour.

but note this, if i don't even regard you,
be assured that i won't even bat an eyelid when i see you.

perhaps only those in similar plight will understand.

what price then, for a friend?
the last i checked my $1738.41 posb savings wasn't enough :P

screw the 'emo' accusations,
for it truly was
a lonely evening.