its been a rough day.

1. commercial law module in the morning.
2. a short discussion with a schoolmate about our law assignment left me more confused.
3. add that to the fact that i noticed he didn't seem too keen to share his thoughts about his conclusion. (c'mon man.. it ain't gonna be a bell curve at the end.. it's you against yourself.. don't be childish.)
4. packed photocopier room at school. closed photocopier room in NgeeAnn poly.
5. Perenial long line of cars parked on one side of the road opposite my house over the weekends. (it just makes driving difficult and cramped. don't make me call the cops)
6. Near accident while thinking about my "problems".
7. Forgot to take my change of clothes to my aunty's place to shower.. so i had to drive home to get it.
8. And see those idiotic line of cars once more.

add all these to my increasingly tight schedule for the month of March, two upcoming tests and a law assignment to finish by march.. and i'm not even including commitments outside of school and what do we get?

an over-worried and stressed-up me.

still, i thank God for these things:

1. i was able to finish part of my revisions tonight.

2. i'm able to finish the rest during the whole of monday.
[God was amazing here: i was very very tempted to continue studying throughout tonight into Sunday.. which i usually don't as i try to not work on the Sabbath. And so i thought.. it was 1130pm. i won't be able to finish revising today's class in half an hour.. gotta be realistic. then i looked at my timetable for next week.. okay so i don't wanna study sunday.. which means i have to finish econs and comm law revisions on monday. diana usually goes home on monday.. we don't meet. if we do, then knowing procras-me sure won't be able to finish by the time she arrives.. Guess what? She has orientation this monday! so i've got no distractions!! (nothing negative attached to her though) and i've got more time to finish my stuff! thank God for sorting that out for me. think about it.. i would never have got to experience God's planning at work if i chose to study into and on Sunday..]

3. there's football tomorrow. i've been itching to play. and i seriously think i need a good workout to get all the bad stresses out of my system.

4. man u won tonight. thanks to a late ronaldo goal..

5. i get to rest and relax tomorrow.

6. He allowed me to put all my problems into perspective on two seperate occasions today.

First was during YFM.. like how i felt a few days back, i felt genuinely at peace being a part of a gathering with His people that my problems didn't matter at all.

then i thought: how does my problem(s) compare to that which is in the world concerning the destiny of many of mankind? seriously, how does it compare?

it doesn't.

Secondly, while i was at my aunty's place and we were all seated at the dining table, i glanced across and saw my grand-aunty (whom i affectionately call "fat-ah-poh") seated in her wheelchair, staring down at her food through her thick glasses, her right hand grasping her chopsticks as she ate, her hair all straight and combed back (it is usually permed), her sagging face due to drastic weight loss after a nasty fall fractured her hip bone, looking like a scene straight out of an old folk's home..

And then i thought: how does my problem(s) compare to the state she's in?

it can't be compared.

i'm feeling a lot better getting this off my chest, sharing it with two people via email and especially after God worked out my little clutter of work for the next few days.

i don't know how i'd cope without His help.

Glory be to God.

Who compares to You?
Who set the stars in their place?
You who calmed the raging seas
That came crashing over me.

Who compares to You?
You who bring the morning light,
The hope of all the earth
Is rest assured in Your great love.

You are magnificent,
Eternally wonderful, glorious.
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus.

Where the evening fades,
You call forth songs of joy.
As the morning wakes,
We Your children give You praise.

You are magnificent,
Eternally wonderful, glorious.
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus.

a heavy heart & welled-up tears.