Only a few more days

Really.. it's only a few more days to P.Tekong.. I think that sinking feeling is starting to set in. And the worse thing is.. I can't help myself. Serves me right for not being right with God. For the many times I've sinned repeatedly, I still can't and won't repent.

Thank you Father. You're still faithful. You still preserved my life.

Thanks to all who remembered that I was going in and bothered to ask how I was.. Jeremy, Edgar, Bee Keong, Boon Hock, Mummy, of course Diana. Ok it seems like this is beginning to sound so drama mama.. but just like what the speaker today said.. people might not understand how you feel, but the thing is.. God knows and he understands. Didn't listen much of the sermon today. The medication knocked me out halfway..

Bee Keong spoke to me regarding the study material my care group was starting on. Though I've done it before, I realise the importance of meeting him every Sunday though it's one of my "off" days so to speak for the next 7 weeks.. If i don't make the first step towards God, how can I even expect Him to help helpless me? So he said, "You don't worry about Diana and outside, we'll take care of her (tear, tear). As for you inside, you have to take care of yourself." I feel blessed. As I was showering earlier, I remember asking Jeffrey to look out for Diana last year before I enlisted..

Thank you God for the people around me and the countless blessings you have given me.

So BK prayed for me at the end of our little conversation in the church office.. I don't know why I teared.. maybe I was touched because of his concern, maybe I was just sad that THE day was approaching, maybe, just maybe, it was the Holy Spirit who touched me.

Come Holy Spirit,
fall afresh on me.
Feel me with your power,
satisfy me needs.

Only you can make me whole,
give me strength and make me whole.
Come holy spirit,
fall afresh on me.